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It is no secret that I want to be an event planner. The personality trait comes out in me way to often when I am thinking about my day. I am constantly planning what time I should be doing x, then y, and z. I get anxious when I don't make it 'on time' to the little timer in my head. It always seems to go off earlier then it needs to. Its like a broken alarm clock. When I think I don't have enough time for something I get annoyed with the project in front of me and eventually wasting (the actual) time I have.

College life seems to be marked with productivity. I am always asking "How's your day been, do anything productive?" It hit me the other day, why do I have to rate the well-being of my day by the amount of boxes I am able to check off of my planner? Why do I have to feel accomplished by getting things done?

So then, when I lie down for bed at night, and think about my day, what can I rate it with? I know that productivity is self-focused, so what is something that is other focused and which really makes a difference in the community I live in?

I am still thinking about it and I know that it sounds like the cheap answer but I think its love. I want my answer to "How was your day?" to always be a "good"; with my internal thoughts being about the amount of love that I have been able to show...challenging I know, but its something I want to work toward